Eternal: obligations barring us from pursuing solely what sustains and builds us, what gives us joy and defines the beauty we dream of when we fall from it to the persuasions of despair. When, if ever, is a person free enough to follow their ambitions? The student, myself, in a wonderful place but always conscious that something else exists, a world of freeform exploration, creativity, devoid of criticism but filled with love (and the advice it brings): the parent, ever growing older, having to be content with the best they can get for now. Again, does it ever end? And how, if it will not, can we be so blind and oblivious to these "extenuating circumstances", these untamable obstacles, the random and bizarre that crops up every day, again and again, away past regret into acceptable loss.
We dispatch the speeding driver as an "idiot", fearing the dangerous swerve of the wheelbed and frightened panic of staccato horn: how can we ignore what propels them forward, fail to think about what cosmic rip-offs they currently suffer? And suffering- what of it? Character building, right? Altogether unlike being the bawling child who thinks he should have all he wants, who sees all limitations as mortal enemies. Is he really so guilty?There are sequel thoughts to this...
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I understand exactly what you mean, Alex... sometimes I wonder if the difference between school and life is like the difference between a steel railing and an open green field. There are so many other things and people in the world, and so many other ways to use our emotions and intellect than by studying trivia and getting grades.
We should watch The Notebook. The mother of all chick flicks... but the most fucking beautiful movie I have ever fucking seen. I cried three times.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ntm1YfehK7U
I hope you haven't heard this song already... listen to the lyrics (they're in "More Info")
For your sequel... tell us how you're going to reach the blue sky again... of limitless potential and happiness.
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